i'm sorry i havent got the time to update this. but shortly, soon.

so i'm in deep shit right now. not to mention all the troubles i've made in the past couple of months. i'm such a whore. but i take all my risks. i guess these all just phases. i'm trying to think wiser.

wish me luck tonight, i beg you.

it's raining outside, i'm smoking cigarrettes and leaving him, and everything behind. i'm trying to. i guess that what's best for me. so i could back to what i used to and smile back at him,
and also to you.

i'm in such a mess. i feel so cheap and meaningless. i feel guilty but pleasure at the same time. i fall in love but it's not that beautiful. i'm having the sloppiest feeling right now and it feels like having a fever. and i'm barely motivated.

losing someone or something in your life is probably the worst feeling but we have to realise that no-one and nothing in this world we could hold forever. someday things are just dissappearing and fading, and we have to accept it because there's really nothing we could fight for, even pride is so meaningless.

i'm trying to believe that disappointment is real, i'm trying not to hope too much.

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i received so many messages. i'm sorry i havent got a chance to get back to you guys, but thank you for your comments and favs. i really appreciate it.

dear, i want to come apart and
dig myself a little hole inside your precious heart.


i'm so scared that i might love you, for real.